I just read some of Susan Albert’s posts on the “Telling Her Stories” blog (http://www.storycircle.typepad.com/). I am amazed and inspired by her writing and those of the other women writing on that blog.
I do not know Susan personally, but I know that she must be an incredibly prolific, determined, multi-tasking wonder of a woman because of all she does and all she says.
And still, even with being able to do all these things, she lets us know that she experiences the full spectrum of feelings — not only the bright colors and sunny days, but the black, gray, blue of depression and sadness and the times of being lost in the night.
My tendency is always to compare and feel how small and wasteful I am of my own life’s talents, but this has not been helpful. Instead, I will simply rejoice that some women put their thoughts and feelings into action and words for us to live by and to be inspired.
My own hope is to touch, inspire and empower. The new promise I can see is that it is possible to do that without being perfect oneself. Even more amazing is that others are not afraid of the dark and they write even from those fearful, hidden places, daring to bring them to the light of day.
I have had an intuition that many threads of my life will come together by my 62nd birthday, April 2009. Usually I just have an image of the chaotic strands on the back side of a tapestry, tangled and hopelessly intertwined so they could never be separated and neatly tied up. I imagine that the image of the life tapestry on the other side will only be understood and seen at death.
But today I have this excitement that I may see a portion of the image in these next months as I approach the April milestone. I am feeling that there is hope to continue exploring in the dark, seeing other people’s guideposts and lighthouses, at the same time that my own expressions might prove a guidepost or lighthouse to someone else on their journey.
In Unity’s Daily Word yesterday, I was reminded that temporary cloud cover and storms only hide the truth of the sun’s presence from us temporarily. It is always there during the day, even when we don’t see it. In the same way, Spirit is with us night and day, whether we feel lost or overflowing with joy.
Thank you, God.